My day started with our 15 year old lab knocking over our 9 foot Christmas tree. It progressively got worse and by mid-day I was in tears. I felt overwhelmed and I was disappointed in myself. I want nothing more than to sit and be still; yet these last few weeks have been anything but slow. This has resulted in an over tired mama that has been irritable and without grace.
I am reminded of a quote I shared over a year ago by Rachel Jankovic. "Motherhood is hard work. It is repetitive and often times menial. Accept it. Rejoice in it. This is your toil. Right here. Those are their faces. Enjoy them. The days of your life are supposed to be full of things like this. But joy is not giddy. It is not an emotional rush–it is what happens when you accept your lot and rejoice in your toil. So rejoice in your children. Look them in the eyes and give thanks."
This afternoon we all went outside. Super girl and I played in the cold grass and warm sun. We laughed and laughed as she tried to fly through the air. This is what it feels like to exhale and just be; to be with my children and forget about the stresses of the day. This is what it feels like when I look them in the eyes and give thanks. And this is what it feels like when I see past all the trivial problems that I often over-exaggerate and appreciate just being together.