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a beautiful reminder

"I was faced with a dilemma - one so many of us face quite often; I could either wrestle my life and my kids and my house and our Christmas into something fantastic; something perfect... Or I could plant myself down right in the middle of the mess and realize that the mess is actually my life, the only one I'll ever get, the one I'm in danger of missing completely, waiting around for fantastic. That Christmas I chose to be present over perfect, and that's still what I choose today"-Shauna Niequist

I was watching the sun stream through the windows this weekend while she was taking a bath. I remember last year this time. Looking out this space; which at the time was a torn apart kitchen under construction. It was the start of the holiday season. It was also the start of me going on bed rest. The start of what would eventually become pre eclampsia and another premature birth. 

Those days were difficult; yet a year later I look back with such gratitude. I felt like my whole world was a mess. We couldn't cook or do laundry in our home for months. I was going to weekly doctor appointments and in and out of the hospital for observation; all of you were with us for almost every appointment. I felt like I was letting our family down. I couldn't go out and do Christmas activities. I couldn't decorate or bake or do the things I loved to do with you.
Through it all, love poured from so many. Our church provided meals for us. Mita took our laundry and lovingly cleaned our clothes. I'll never forget the day that Mimi showed up and decorated our home. Hallmark Christmas movies played a lot and we spent time as a family snuggled in bed, doing all I could to stay healthy. 

We were together. 

It was a time that is normally busy but became unusually slow. It was a beautiful reminder in being present and together. I pray that I can take that slow and infuse it into our Christmas each year. I don't want to try and orchestrate a pretty picture of some perfection that doesn't exist. I want to cherish these days and hold onto what this season is truly about and I don't want to miss the light that He has so graciously brought into my life.


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It has been a long time since I have shared Pito’s story. Months of hard realities have passed as we have watched his health decline. Through it all there has been a light that has shined brighter than any dark moment.

A light I see in all of Pito’s children; my husband and his three brothers. A love and a bond that is so special to witness. A dedication to their parents and a love of family that is so evident in every decision they make.

And then there is Mita. A light that shines for all of us to admire. She has strength that amazes me with every passing day as I know her heart and body grow weary and tired. Grace that I learn from constantly. And faith that is unwavering. Her heart breaks while she stays by Pito’s side always, caring for him with devotion and love.

Many times in our lives we question God’s plans. We don't understand the paths He has us travelling, yet, if we keep seeking, we will find His light through all of it. He never forsakes us. And through it all, He show us pieces of Him through others and in subtleties of our lives.

I have seen Him through every part of Pito's story. May we all continue to hold strong to this truth :

"What we suffer now, is nothing compared to the Glory He will reveal to us later" Romans 8:18

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